Bülow, Billie Eilish, Sasha Sloan, and Conan Gray: Music I'm Listening To


This month I've listened to a lot less music (I think it's to fend off the concert sadness), but there have been some new tracks that I consistently turn on. As for as artists go, Conan Gray has become my latest go to musician. I made a whole playlist of all the music he's put out so far, and that's been my go to for a while. I think it's the mix of dark and relatable I need right now. I've also been listening to a lot by Canadian artist bülow. I'd heard her more electro track "get stupid" a while ago and liked it, but I'd never thought to look at what else she had out. I finally did this month! I also found some older songs from Billie Eilish and Finneas I hadn't heard before which was a treat, and there was new music by two of my favorite artists, Sasha Sloan and Sody. The rest of the songs on this playlist are either new comfort go to's, old favorites, or just recently released songs that I want to get to know better.
Two Punks in Love bülow
I am newly obsessed with this song. It's a total story song and an imperfect love story that's really beautiful. I can't wait to learn to play this one.
"Even though the years go by/Seasons change and flowers die/We're still rocking side by side/I'm still yours and you're still mine"
Defenceless Louis Tomlinson
This falls under the comfort music section. My mom really likes Walls, so I've been listening to the whole album a ton. The songwriting might not be the most complex or revolutionary, but there is something knowingly hopeful. There's plenty of grief throughout, but there's also a pervasive sense that we can be okay again. I've needed that lately. I picked
"Defenseless" because the track has really grown on me. It was my least favorite when the album came out, but it's grown on me. "We're sleepin' on our problems like we'll solve them in our dreams/We wake up early morning and they're still under the sheets."
Before You Go Lewis Capaldi
This is another one inspired by my mom who made me actually listen to Lewis Capaldi. When I paid attention I realized how much I really loved the lyrics. While I've since learned the real meaning, I always saw the song as the end of a failed relationship where he's trying to make the love interest break her distorted thoughts. Either way you look at it, it's a beautiful song.
"So, before you go/Was there something I could've said to make it all stop hurting?/It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless"
San Francisco Niall Horan
This is oddly the song that's stuck with me off of Heartbreak Weather the most. I find myself specifically seeking it out. I wanted to give Niall a shout out because his lives every other day have made me feel less lonely as we're all isolated. There's something haunting about this song. It's so deeply seated in nostalgia and regret.
"I want to kiss you like the first time/Hold you like it's not goodbye/Wish I hadn't been so cruel/I want to let all my defenses down/Scream until you hear me out/I'll lay it on the line for you"
Life Moves On Finneas
Thanks to a random Spotify playlist, I learned this song existed. It's not super complicated, but it has a really thought provoking theme. Sometimes it would've been better if relationships never happened at all.
"Life moves on/The way life does/But some things are prettier/The way life was/Before we gave each other love, love."
Six Feet Under Billie Eilish 
My new Billie song for this playlist is from all the way back in 2016. I hadn't come across it before, but I immediately liked the haunting quality to it and the ongoing metaphor throughout.
"Our love is six feet under/I can't help but wonder/If our grave was watered by the rain/Would roses bloom?/Could roses bloom/Again?"
Sundress Bülow
"Sundress" was the other song that I particularly loved during my deep dive. It has a really unique format where it's just 3 verses without a chorus or any repetition.
"See you twirling in my sundress/High tide doesn't come in yet/Did no one ever tell you?/Your eyes match the sunset"
I'll Wait- Kygo and Sasha Sloan
I was so excited to see Sasha putting out more music! It feels appropriate for the time because it's about a long term, long distance love. In contrast to the Bülow song, I feel like this one is a touch too long, but I've enjoyed it none-the-less.
"People say we're fools, people say we're dumb/People say we're caught up in temporary love/We don't know what we're doing, they say we're too young/But they don't know a thing about us"
Charlotte Sody 
I was hoping Sody would put out something new soon, and my wish was answered! This piano ballad spoke to my core. It talks about a subject that is scaring and stays with you for the rest of your life but is so rarely discussed- friendship break ups. It feels very stream of consciousness, and anyone who's had to move on from a friendship will relate to everything she brings up.
I just wanna know if you're still fine
"'Cause if not, I'm there in a hurry/You moved on, but you're part of my story/Everything is coming back to me now/Thought I'd be there when you married/Does your therapist know about me?/'Cause mine does, mine does"
Best Years 5SOS
I really liked the 5SOS album overall, and "Best Years" stood out from the bunch for me. I love this declaration of wanting to try to be better and that we can all keep trying to improve. It's a really powerful song.
"You've got a million reasons to hesitate/But darlin', the future's better than yesterday/I wasted so much time on people that reminded me of you/Gave you a million reasons to walk away"
The Other Side Conan Gray
I talk about Conan a lot, but his music is just what I need at the moment. I think that's especially because a lot of his music centers on being young and also not being that young anymore and moving on to a new phase of life. He's not afraid to admit it's scary. This song (and "Little League") captures this mix of fear and nostalgia at peak level.
"In my life, it flies by/Faster than you could say, "I love you, goodbye"/"It's almost over," you say with a sigh/Will our lives be better when we make it to the other side?"

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